- death is inevitable
- fat is ugly
- honesty is Naive
- Everybody Lies
- Everybody is biased
update: Nov 30th 18.43pm starbucks Sar
- you can’t fight society. society will always win.
“What do YOU know for sure?”
p.s. this list will increase hopefully in the next couple of days.
fucking hell!! why am i here? why am i here? why am i here? why am i here?
on the upside: they’re showing “sex and the city” on TV Land again ..
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so I’m like a freak of nature. i tend to be happier to wake up early when there is rain and cloud and the whether to me is so fucking romantic.
so here’s what i’ve noticed. when i get my car washed, the second it’s clean, it starts raining!!
so basically, getting my car cleaned is like doing some sort of Native American Rain Dance.
with me so far?
so i miss the rain.
so i’ve decided to get my car cleaned today. hahahah .. lets test out this lovely theory.
I love harry potter .. i know some of you may think i am a dork, but you know what? I must’ve read thousands of books in my life time .. but my all time favorite book is definitely Harry Potter .. (sorry .. ha ha .. i was watching one of the harry potter movies when i wrote that)
Anyway .. so I’ve not written in a while, i guess its ’cause every time i log on to blog, i get so busy with clearing all the spam and everything .. UHH!! .. i hate spam!!
fuck it!!
so, its strange, ya know, I’ve been learning a lot about myself. I, of course, had to learn these things from a friend of mine. he had to sit there for an hour and tell me why he’s pissed at me.
anyway, i don’t care about that. I’m over it.. but what I’m not over is the fact that he knew a lot of these things from this other friend of mine. lets call her X and him Y. so Y has been telling me that there are certain conversations that we have, all of us, as a group that i shouldn’t repeat. and me, being the idiot that i am, sometimes repeat what we talk about not thinking its a big deal.
so this was the big thing that was pissing my friends off. i get it. I’ll be more careful.
but why is it that they talk among themselves about what i do. for example, if i say something to someone in front of X, then X goes and tells Y that this and this happened INSTEAD OF COMING TO ME AND TELLING ME THAT WHAT I DID WAS WRONG. isn’t that the same thing?
why do i hate X sometimes?
why is there no loyalty in friends anymore?
so anyway, there is an upside. the whether has been fucking amazing!! especially when it rains!!! and I’ve been bonding with X and Y these days.. talking a lot..
I’m having fun, but also, as usual, having a hard time getting close to people.
what is wrong with me? why am i so scared of getting hurt?
i know I’ve had a bad past with friends, but what the fuck man!!! why am i trying to push them away?
they genuinely care about me!!
i just can’t figure out why they care..
Vanity never fails to fascinate me.
also, jealousy, on my part, never fails to appear.
I am jealous. yes i am a jealous person. its one of the deadly sins right? hmm ..
I am jealous of the vain. is it a sin if these sins overlap?
does that make sense??
One day i intend to experience this thing they call vanity.
haha .. another pointless post ..
I’m loving this!
when someone’s a pain in the ass.. you do not want to waste a whole sentence on them.
for example, you don’t to say “you are a pain in the ass!”. all you gotta do is look at this person with anger and say “ASS-ACHE!”.
POINTLESS post.
how do you tell a friend you love so dearly that they make you sad?
they make you sad when they care so much about you.
they make you sad when they tell you their problems.
they make you sad when you can’t solve their problems.
so you stop picking up their phone calls.
and it just gets harder and harder to pick up.
what do you do?
ok .. i admit it
I’M DESPERATE..
i dunno what the fuck my hormones are thinking playing with me like this..
but i’m feeling lonely
haha .. pathetic huh??
i need someone..
someone to trust
someone to love
someone who finds me fascinating
someone who makes me laugh
someone who laughs at my jokes
someone to make out with haha
someone i will end up with
i need that ..
i don’t feel human..
i don’t feel i deserve love..
i’m not fishing for compliments ..
i’m serious..
i need to feel human ..
why is it never about me?
