The Girl With No Face

faceless. pointless..

 

I WANT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- “oh, did you know that B’s girlfriend used to be engaged?” Says “A” to me while we were in the car alone on our way to pick up S.
- “oh really?”– S gets in the car — “do you think B knows?” I say to A.
- “Know what?” asks S
- “That B’s girlfriend was engaged” i tell S
- “Oh my god! Do you think B knows?” asks S
- “I don’t know and i don’t care” says A

——— 7 hours later

- “I’m sorry, but I told my boyfriend K about it, and he insists on telling B because he’s one of his best friends” Said S to A over the phone.
- “K will call you now”
- “what? why? when I talked about it, i was just mentioning it. i didn’t mean that he has to know! who are we to interfere?” A argued
- “talk to him.”

———- a few minutes later

- “it was not a big deal. why are you making it a big deal?” A asked K
- “I’m not saying it is, but i have to tell him. he’s my friend and if he found out somewhere down the line, and he found out that i already knew and didn’t tell him, he will be pissed” said K
- “but..”
- “No buts.. I’ll tell him and don’t worry, you’re not getting into trouble.”

———— after i argued with A about it, I decided to call K

- “K, why the hell are you making this a big deal? it will look like we’re interfering.”
- “yeah, but .. ”
- ” and what if his girlfriend already told him that she was engaged but he respected her privacy by not telling any of us, then we’ll be mingling. yes?”
- “aha, but .. ”
- “no buts, you’re making this huge and it will be bigger if you don’t shut up. i can’t believe how much drama is in this group. the last problem ended like 5 hours ago. its over. done with.”
- “so i shouldn’t tell him? I’ll feel like shit if i don’t”

*the phone beeped i was getting another call*

- “I gave you my opinion. you do what you think is right” I said
- “OK, i won’t do anything. but this is the last time something like this happens. if anyone has anything to say, they go directly to the person and tells them, NOT tell the rest. so now four of us know, there’s no need to tell M and P, its gone far enough!”
- “ok, i don’t give two shits anyway. I’m just sick of this drama”

——— I shut the phone then noticed the missed call from P

- “Hi P, whats up?”
- “Nothing, who were you talking to just now?”
- “K”
- “thats weird, he doesn’t usually call you at this time of night, does he?”
- “no, not really.”
- “whats going on?”
- “its nothing. he wanted to talk about something.”
- “was it about me?”
- “of course not!”
- “was it about A?”
- “no, not really. look, its nothing. forget it. its about B. its got nothing to do with us”
- “B’s girlfriend?”
- “what about her?”
- “i think i know what you’re talking about. i know about her and her past.”
- “that she was engaged?”
- “WHAT? she was engaged?”
- “oops”
- “i was gonna say that she’s kinda a hoe!!”

————after explaining the situation and having P yell at me for opening my big mouth in front of S when i know that S tells K everything:

- “Enough with the drama!!” P said
- “uff i wish i never told you!! but you pushed to know!! jesus!! i can’t say anything can I!!”

*phone beeped*

- “One sec”

*switch calls*

- “hey S whats up!”
- “who you talking to?”
- “why is everyone so nosy today? I’m talking to P”
- “did you tell him?”
- “yeah, but don’t tell K”
- “i regret telling him about B’s girlfriend. he’s so annoying!!”
- “learn to shut up next time!!”
- “i know. but why did you tell P?”
- “he kinda already knew” *white lie*
- “what? how?”
- “he’s on the other line. i gotta go!!”

*switch calls*

- “I swear this group lives on drama” I say
- “for future reference, do NOT interfere!!”
- “I didn’t!! apparently, i can’t even make conversation!!! everything anyone ever says becomes a big deal!! I WANT OUT!!”

I’M SURE YOU HAD ENOUGH BY NOW… IMAGINE HOW I FEEL!!!

god KNOWS what tomorrow holds!!

Filed under : General, friends
By faceless
On February 26, 2007
At 3:26 am
Comments : 2
 
 

giving in..

I’m attempting to adapt to the world.
i’m hoping not to lose myself in the process!

Filed under : General, theory, sad
By faceless
On February 23, 2007
At 6:23 pm
Comments : 2
 
 

karma?

thanks Karma, but no thanks!
i can’t stand to see my baby sister like this any longer.
even tho she stood and watched me fade away.

thanks karma, but no thanks!

Filed under : General, confusion, friends
By faceless
On February 20, 2007
At 3:57 am
Comments : 0
 
 

do you smell??

my blanket smells like 2003 (ok, maybe 2004)
not quite sure yet.
the smell of the fabric softener makes me happy but tense..
still trying to figure it out.

What I know about smell and memory:

* Memory - odor memory falls off less rapidly that other sensory memory
* Odor memory lasts a long time.
* Odor associated with experience and a smell can recall the memory; smell is better at this memory cue effect than other senses

but i can’t remember!!

Filed under : General, pointless
By faceless
On February 19, 2007
At 12:37 pm
Comments :1
 
 

malat la5 aw malat zawaj?

yes my friends. I discovered that when it comes to us girls, there are two catagories: malat la5 aw malat zawaj. and this is only in the case that they like what you look like. so its like this, they see a girl, if they like how she looks or is remotely acceptable to look at, she’s in the “yes” category. the “yes” category splits into two subcategories, “fuckable” or “marriage material”.

yes my friends. we are objects. and thats what it comes down to.

Filed under : General, confusion, disappointment, BOYS, theory
By faceless
On February 13, 2007
At 3:27 pm
Comments : 12
 
 

Dear Diary,

so now they told me the truth. my intuition was correct. i can’t help but have flashbacks.
all the times they made me feel crazy and all the times they made me doubt myself are very
fresh in my mind. i have conflicting emotions. happy that I got my sanity and confidence in my
intuition back, and sad that they were willing to sacrifice my friendship for something as stupid
and as uninteresting as their precious secret. conflicting feelings like my relief that they trust
me now and my disappointment now that i really cared.

it was way too late.

but i dunno why i’m happy.

love,
me

Filed under : General, confusion, disappointment, happy, friends, frustration, sad
By faceless
On February 7, 2007
At 11:39 pm
Comments :1
 
 

..

Dear Diary,

they’re fun, my friends, but I still feel weird.

they say they love me, but i somehow doubt them. a lot. and i have good reason to.

do i hold grudges? .. hmm .. maybe ..

do i really play the middle child? do i use that as an excuse for everything?

hmm .. possibly.

am i happy? .. umm .. yeah..

i still feel betrayed tho

oh well.

Love,
Me

Filed under : General, confusion, disappointment, happy, indifferent, friends, frustration
By faceless
On February 6, 2007
At 2:34 am
Comments : 0
 
 

too excited


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JK Rowling wrote the following message on a marble bust at the Balmoral Hotel in Edinburgh: “JK Rowling finished writing Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows in this room (652) on 11th Jan 2007.”

Filed under : General, happy, harrypotter
By faceless
On February 3, 2007
At 12:37 am
Comments : 4