The Girl With No Face

faceless. pointless..

 

why does society ALWAYS win??

In the past week, whenever I’d have a conversation with DIFFERENT people about DIFFERENT topic, things I’m passionate about, like freedom, religion or MUSIC even, I get the same reaction from people: “You can’t fight society, you’re only ONE person”.

what happened to passion and courage?!?!? what happened to the hippies and the 70s where people would fight for what they thought was right?!?!?!  Doesn’t a revolution start with ONE persons idea? Doesn’t a million dollars start with ONE dollar?

why do we always have to give in? and why is it that US GIRLS must sacrifice the most?

why can’t i just go to a concert to enjoy the music and dance to it just for the fuck of it? why is it that i have to think 28302830 times before i even considering attending one of those thing? why is it that when I’m there, I bump into someone related to me, who is DRUNK i might add, who YELLS at me to go home!!

I have nothing against drinking. what i do have a problem with is the fact that you were yelling at me for just being in a place where there are MEN who are DRUNK. my friend, you are just adding fuel to the fire.

You were yelling at me and telling me “what are you doing here? what could you POSSIBLY want by coming here?” *erm, the music?*

I’m not there to pick up girls like YOU are, and I’m not there to get drunk tonight. I am here for the music. plus, YOU’RE drunk, aren’t you worries that people might talk about you?

“il 9bay may3eeba shay!!” (roughly translates to  = nothing can touch a man’s reputation)

EXCUSE ME?!

“What if someone bothers you? who will be there to protect you?”

Hmmm, being that I am 3 or 4 years OLDER than you are, I think that I can take care of MYSELF!

“People will talk about you!”

and say WHAT exactly? that i was at a concert? umm, they’re kinda right, because i AM here for the music!

“People will not say that you’re here for the music, people will say that you’re out late and that you were drunk and that you’re not a good girl!”

Define ‘good girl’!! If being a good girl means doing WRONG THINGS without people knowing, then i don’t want to be a ‘good girl’ because the way i see it, most girls in this country would rather go out with guys, get drunk, get high or just be plain fucked up without anyone knowing and STILL be labeled as a ‘good girl’. i just want to live my life doing what i think is right and sometimes being a human being and wanting to do something wrong, and DOING it. i want to live in a place where i don’t have to abide by rules i don’t believe in. GIRLS have urges too!! Girls have sexual needs and needs to flirt and feel wanted, needs to be BAD and smoke weed!! we not only have to NOT do these things, we have to PRETEND that we don’t have these needs or urges!!

*do you GET how FUCKED UP that is?*

“You’re ONE person, you can’t fight the whole society!!”

WHY NOT?!? The society is WRONG!! and I’m not saying this because i think I’m right, LOGIC tells you that society is WRONG!!

“go home! or you can stay here only with ME!”

BYE

did he really expect me to stay under his mercy? Not able to walk or move or dance or even look at anyone?

fuck!! and i was so excited about it!! he ruined it for me..

Filed under : rage, disappointment, BOYS, Bahrain, frustration, sad, depression, family
By faceless
On November 24, 2007
At 3:04 pm
Comments : 6
 
 

My Birthday Wishes.. better late than never =)

 On the day of my 25th birthday (May 16th 2008), I’ll be:

  • Be in an itsy bitsy teeny weeny yellow polka dot bikini (with a flat tummy)
  • I’ll have had gone on a shopping spree and bought lots and lots of tiny dresses and short shorts
  • I’ll …

.. I just realized how little I want .. So I’ll wish for other people:

  • My older sister will be engaged to be married to man that will treat her like a queen.
  • My younger sister will have got karmic revenge from those who hurt her so much.
  • My Mother will be.. hmm.. Happier.. she’s the most content person i know, but she deserves more from us.
  • My Father will have finally grown up and started taking responsibility for his life.. I love him to death
  • My M will be happily still happy with my ex-friends (her friends) .. if they hurt her ill break their legs
  • My N will have a man who values her and never ever break her heart :-*
  • My F will be recieving a scholarship to do her masters in London.
  • My June will be peaceful with her decision and/or make the correct one. I will also have met her and we’re best friends. haha
  • My Nooon will have convinced her dad that she’s really in love with k and that it will work.

hmm.. can i think of any more??

update:

  • My Minus, she’ll have survived and graduated UOB and be with her loverboy forever and ever =)
Filed under : General
By faceless
On November 11, 2007
At 2:09 pm
Comments : 6
 
 

Need to vanish..

3.30 p.m. Saturday. November 3rd 2007

Its amazing how alone i feel at this exact second..
Unbelievably aware of how insignificant i am..
How little i mean to the world.. And painfully realizing how no one will ever know i’m gone..
But you know what? Deep down inside.. I’m already gone..
I’m in suicidal mode right now and there’s no one who comes to mind i think would be interested in knowing this or comforting me right now.. I need to please.. Can’t burden anyone tho.. Its not fair to them..

Filed under : disappointment, depression, family
By faceless
On November 4, 2007
At 8:53 am
Comments : 4