http://www.facelessness.com faceless. pointless.. Tue, 01 Jul 2008 11:00:41 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en With only RedBull, Cigarettes and my thoughts filling up my days, I am trying to figure out who I am... Until I do.. this blog is on pause... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/321 is the question I keep finding myself asking... myself. I've been trying to figure it out. This person that is me is no longer the same. She is confident and happy. She is beautiful and fierce. This girl that looks back at me looks so unfamiliar, that it might as well ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/315 5 days on a liquid diet and seven kilos lost is not normal. But it was all fun and dandy until my sister pointed out that she's never noticed before how thin my ankles were. and i was all like "WHAT? ME? THIN ANKLES??? I HAVE KANKLES".. so I look down ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/312 I'm having the Lap Band surgery tomorrow. I've been having a hard time thinking about life without the comfort of food. I have love/hate feelings towards food. I resent food for making me fat and yet food is my favorite addiction. I have no idea how to comfort myself otherwise. ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/311 [youtube ZKYUTWE50UM&] I can't help it! and its prolly from lack of sleep. Lack of sleep or lack of affection. Lack of sleep or lack of companion. Lack of sleep Or lack of understanding. I don't care anymore. I don't care for those that just wish to point out whats wrong with me ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/309 This is what I POSTED on November 11th 2007 On the day of my 25th birthday (May 16th 2008), I’ll be: Be in an itsy bitsy teeny weeny yellow polka dot bikini (with a flat tummy) - NOPE I’ll have had gone on a shopping spree and bought lots and lots of tiny ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/304 I'm so tired.. I'm resisting falling into depression.. resisting with all my might.. I'm so tired. I can barely get up in the morning, I usually don't. I have not been to the gym in weeks. I can't get myself to do anything productive. I'm so tired... I'm tired of everything. of ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/303 Definitions of hypochondria: Hypochondria (or hypochondriasis, sometimes referred to as health anxiety, health phobia) refers to an excessive preoccupation or worry about having a serious illness. ... My worse fear is cancer. To be more specific, breast cancer. I have this image in my head of having one breast ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/301 .. All I can think about is what June once said to me: "enough with the guilt already... because its gay" hahahahaha you see, I can't really talk about why I'm feeling guilty. but I can talk about everything else. I discovered that I'm not the person I thought I was. I discovered that there's something ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/300 JESUS, MARY AND JOSEPH! look who'll be in dubz in the next two weeks :'( None of my friends can come with me.. WHAT DO I DO??? Mariah carey is going to be there on my birthday weekend! I'd already planned to go there that weekend to sky dive on my ... http://www.facelessness.com/archives/298